Chapter: A Fit Destruction

I hate the feeling of containment as an artist. What kind of crap is that. Ugh. Sometimes I feel like exploding and just running outside with a paint can and throwing it on everything in sight. I like to create and I enjoy destroying. Its a weird mix, but thats life really. We live and create our lives through the experiences we have and we most of the time destroy it with the choices we make. Naturally. May seem like a leap of an assertion, but....this is my blog. I can say whatever I want.
So yeah, feeling pressured and just so recluse have my mind doing somersaults. It's freaking making me nauseous. All the things like is mixed with. It's such a concoction of sweet and sour that I am forever in a state of awkward. I never know what to do, what to expect, how to react or how to go about it. I just analyze and observe, almost in awe of what this world is full of. (Insert your own idea of what world is made up of here.) It's just weird. But it can be beautiful. On really rare occasions. Under a certain lighting. On a foggy day. Around 3am.

Chapter: I'm Too Frustrated to Name This Post

I don't have many issues, if any. Those I do have are generally kept under control. Still, I manage to feel like utter worthless crap somedays strictly out of the blue. Maybe it's not so random seeing as I've educated myself enough to know that any kind of happiness or pleasure is from an over casted plague of complacency we are all victims to. Sounds rough, but is there really any other way to put it? What's the point of sugar coating anything nowadays? It's as if we are asking to be kept under this veil of ignorance. Sure, ignorance is bliss, without any doubt, but is it a blissful feeling realizing we are all mindless drones being pushed through some sort of system under the illusion of free will? It's unsettling when we fully comprehend it. Why is it so hard to succeed? Better yet, why is it so much easier to sit down and watch a movie, rather than focus that attention towards something I don't know productive, fulfilling. I could go on to mention my disdain towards people after reading several posts on Facebook and twitter, but then I would have to call myself a hypocrite. I find myself stuck deep inside some funk that has got me tied down by every hair on my body. Or at least it feels that way. I feel lazy and distracted to do what I love. I step outside of my body and try to witness myself from a different perspective, and I think that is what has me in this bitter mood. I'm under a content facade that living like this is ok. But when I go to correct myself, the most random weight sits itself on my body and it's as if I am physically incapable to do something. At all. So I lay on my bed falling right back into a hole of expediency.

So here I am. Typing and still not doing. I could say a lot more, but I won't.

Chapter: Scoop of Truth

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Chapter: Subject to Failure

Everything is this country is marred with fiscal issues. We are brainwashed with the amount of stuff we have and the more we want it. We're used to buying and owning, continually raising the bar.

Is it me or does money seem to thwart dreams and ambitions, and make people full of potential settle for the stability of a bi-weekly paycheck? Selling their time to businesses and corporations instead developing their minds, abilities and talents. NewsWeek did a recent study on the top 13 most useless majors and of course Fine Arts was listed as number one. Big Surprise. They based it off of unemployment rates, earnings and projected growth within the next decade. Realistically, in this day and age those things are "needed" in order to "succeed". That's where the mind boggling happens for me. How is it we've evolved into a nation that relies on it's monetary system to determine stature and success? It isn't even the nation's monetary system, it's the Federal Reserve's, (but that's another issue.. I won't go all political science-y on you.)
Now let's return to the "useless majors". Art critic Blake Gopnik responded to the list with

After all, who’s more important today, Rembrandt or the people who bought his art? Monet or the people who bought his? Van Gogh or the rich idiots who FAILED to buy what he made? Useless is as useless does, I say, and it seems pretty clear to me that, across history, many of the people who made the biggest difference had training in the most useless professions. (Aristotle, anyone?) 

I think it's safe to say most of us can agree with that comment. Or at least I'd hope so. If we didn't have people studying philosophy, where would these new thoughts and theories come from, and what about? Drama and theatre arts or film, video and photographic arts? Really? What movies would we be watching or what shows would make us laugh? (I understand you don't need to major in these areas, but let's think of it as simply it being your passion.) And finally the one that really hit home, fine arts. Anyone who decides to major in art is obviously taking a risk. Personally, every time I tell someone what I study at school I get the casual fake smile that really says "God be with you". To get that all the time is kind of discouraging, but then to read it's the #1 most useless major was just offensive. 

(It was discouraging too, I was depressed for about 2-3 days, but I'm over it.) What Gopnik says is true, if we don't have people studying all these different fields, we'll lose the diversity this nation is known for and we'll all be a bunch of mindless drones running through the system. I don't understand how people don't see it, but the world will MOST DEFINITELY not be a better place when people have more money. We all fall into that trap. "If only I had more money, then I could do..." yada yada yada. Truth is, we need to want less and value what's important more. 

What is happening is like a mind-blowing interrelated domino effect. Personally, I believe it begins the second we are afraid to fail. What was the list based on? Unemployment rates, earnings and projected growth. All the things we somehow believe calculate our chances of succeeding. If we don't achieve a stable job with a solid income, we are failures. Edwin Land once said, "An essential aspect of creativity is not being afraid to fail." If we get this stability, we won't want to risk it for the fear of failing and losing what we have. If we do not push ourselves to take risks, our creativity dies. This thought has been embedded in us since school. Schools are constantly killing creativity and limiting their students. The curriculums are biased, the teachers are not great, and the teachers that are great aren't rewarded. Not enough focus is placed on public education. The one of single most important things! Educating the youth! But I digress. In high school we are told to be doctors, be lawyers, be whatever brings home the bread. But why? So we have a surplus of bread? Doesn't bread expire? At some point it'll be useless, no? That's my thought progress at least.

We'd all have cancer if it weren't for doctors.

I understand there are people who are truly passionate and talented at what they do. Doctors, lawyers, engineers, nurses, computer scientists and business people. My only issue is placing the importance solely on those who make the most money. A perfect example of this, (in no way am I comparing them to doctors and such) are reality TV stars. What is it exactly that they do? Entertain sure, but what else? What do they contribute to the positive progress of the world? You tell me.

But anyways, I wrote this because I was frustrated with money. Not being able to get a job, which doesn't help me get a studio space, or materials, or a car to get to a job. I just feel like it's creeping up on me and impeding my progress. I'll find a loophole, eventually. I hope. But in the end, "the grass is greener where you water it."

Chapter: Vespian Zest

I feel something new, different, exhilarating and comforting. Like the feeling you get when you step in the sunlight after being in the cold air for too long. I feel something growing from this nostalgia, coming back to life better said. Patience nourished the soil it dwelled in as trickles of endearment and intimacy fed it's roots enough to have it bloom, passionately revealing petals of compassion and understanding. The wind whispered wisdoms to keep thoughts moving, forward, hopeful… And it swayed, swayed to the music the fluttering butterflies created as your presence ignited a spark. A spark that brought light to a place where light was obsolete. Unexpected, but surprisingly welcome. Eyes squinted, but adjusted. Now it feeds sunlight to a meadow flourishing with life by an ever flowing stream of tenderness and ardor. Cosmic encounter, galactic alignment, once in a lifetime, vespo.

Chapter: Billie X Armstrong Interlude

Chalk on the Walk from Marlene Marmolejos on Vimeo.

Me at the Chalk on the Walk at the May Fair 2011. First try at chalk art, fun day.

Chapter: Charcoal X Hogwarts

Richard Harris Drawing 11x17

By Marlene Marmolejos (me)

Chapter: Off Future

One thing that really gets me annoyed is potential gone to pure waste. It pains me to see people and places that I love become obsolete and useless. I'm all for change, but let it be productive and positive for yourself and the environment. We all possess personal freedom, but know what you are choosing and what you are deciding to support. What is this with our youth chanting "Kill them all!" Really?

I was recently introduced to OFWGKTA (Odd Future Wolf Gang Kill Them All). Basically a bunch of rapper dudes between ages 16-21 who don't care about anything and rap and stuff. They have variety, but I'm being vague. But yeah, cool, good for them. I listened to them for a few days, mostly because I was angry, but when I began to cool down and had the lyrics rolling off of my tongue, I noticed what I was saying.

Tell your b*tch stop complaining bout her achey tits
A body is a temple - I don't give a f*ck; I'm atheist

-__-, inspiring. I'm all for religious freedom and people have the right to believe whatever they wish to believe, but c'mon. This is what hip hop is coming to? This group is different, that's obvious, but is what they're bringing to the table something we should be praising? Their content usually has to do with rape, "f*cking white b*tches", mutilation, murder, or life generally. Not forgetting homophobia, misogyny, and just extreme violence.
They're different, people like different, but why would a young girl be so enthused by a guy saying..

Moving on to a Jessica, planning to make a mess of herAfter a couple drinks and a session of anal sex with herLike "Hey there, intestines, my cock is erect, next to ya"We the sh*t like what you make, them n*ggas still ain't fresh as us.

No offense to the group, but after those few days, I felt like my IQ dropped a few points, and I was offending myself. But that's just me.

So back to my point. I feel like some of the people I know are growing up and changing, but in my eyes, instead of progressing they're degenerating. Supporting music that in no way represents what they claim to "love" (i.e. soul), and just completely contradict themselves. I'm all for spontaneity, but not when it's running around saying you want to kill people and "burning rubber and f*cking beasts with a burnt d*ck". You're still in high school, probably can't completely fathom what it is you're listening to, and so you categorize it as "swag". Because raping and killing people is attractive and respectable. (I know it's all hypothetical and in theory, but really?) Calm down. These dudes were even afraid of their mom listening to what they were creating. Seriously, see for yourself.

Odd Future's Tyler, The Creator says:

"If you go to any other rapper's show, they just stand there and rap. Rap is really just too conventional. Everybody does the same thing. No one ever pushes the box. And then when you get people pushing the line too far, people are like, 'What the f--- is this?' And then it's like ... 'This is tight, it's new.' We're doing something that no one has ever done before."

I love new music. I respect this group's outlandish approach, but I don't like that it's adding corruption to an already messed up youth.

I'll leave you with some wise words..

"Yo I’m seventeen, already sniffin’ blow. I tell my friends its asthmary time I itch my throat, I got a new show for MTV, Pimp My Boat."

Odd Future, indeed.

Remember, just my opinion.

Chapter: The Artist

(painting by unknown artist)

The artist emerges from the ashes of burning beauty. The artist flourishes when happenings expel pure emotions. The artist blooms at the feeling of melancholic gloom. The artist's paint is it’s tears spread across a canvas. The artist breathes, what it lives. It’s more than just a painting. It’s our reflection.

Chapter: Minds of Glory

So that's the problem with schools, in a nutshell. Couldn't have said it better myself. Production by Frandiego Veloz. (Round of applause)

Chapter: Staple Art

By a French artist named Baptiste Debombourg. His name says it. He is 'De Bomb'.

Chapter: Creativity at it's Rawest

Why is it that so many artists are famous after they die? Or that their work is mostly posthumous? For example, Van Gogh (you know, the schizophrenic who cut off his ear and sent it to his girlfriend in an envelope, romantic right?) I don't really know the answer, but I feel like they're just not taken that seriously while they're around, breathing. But once they are dead, and they had somewhat established themselves as artists, the value of their pieces automatically bump up. It kind of sucks if you ask me, I'd like to be around to see people appreciate my art.
But anyways, what I'm trying to get at is we should recognize these artists from the get-go. From when we get that thought " Wow, this person is pretty talented." And Let's not restrict ourselves to the typical areas of art that are more popularly known, like painting, sculpture, clay etc. There are so many mediums to art that we don't know of. Think of EVERYTHING. Painting, ceramics, photography, film-making, illustration, contemporary, music (singing, beat-making, playing musical instruments), dance, theater, even coffee art, you know with the cream and they make those little funky images in the mug etc. You name it.

OK, so allow me to get specific. I happen to know a certain young girl named Elissa Salas that happens to be NASTY at photography, and quite precisely that's what she wants to study after high school. Do I think she can make it? No doubt about it. Do a lot of people know she is evolving into a potentially fantasmical photographer? I don't think so. Is it a shame? Yes. But she's young, so there's time.

Next. I also happen to know (very well, may I add) a very intriguing 18 year old by the name of Frandiego Veloz (aka Balistic Beats) (aka my soul-mate ;]). His area of talent? Music-making. He is DISGUSTING. So he's been making beats for about 6 years and he's gained recognition only locally. I'm not even going to ask myself if it's a shame because it blatantly is. And It's not a biased opinion or anything, he genuinely is extremely talented at making music, yet people take it for granted and don't see the artist that is standing right there, in front of them.
We can help these people meet people and create connections that will allow them to take milestones in there creative careers, just by talking to people we know and spreading the word. (That was really wordy, but you get the point.) These artists are already doing their part. Let's bring creativity back and show the world the hidden talent that stands before our eyes.

Chapter: Street Art

Out of the many street artists there are, I'd have to say Banksy is one of my favorites. Although the mystery is no more because his identity has already been revealed as Robert Gunningham, and he's a regular middle class guy, that shouldn't matter. It shouldn't really be about the artist or the person, but about the artwork. I just like the art. People get lost in their passion without being aware. They fall in love with the paint, the frames and all the other materials that contribute to art, actually not even. It isn't so much a materialistic problem, but a conceptual problem. They develop a love for the work they do, which by no means is bad, not at all, but they lose their true passion. Their inspiration. That inspiration or that light led them to want to show others what they see. Everyone uses different instruments. Whether it be a musical instrument, paint, a pencil, a pen, keyboard or even our own bodies. The ulterior purpose, is to show what we see, to express ourselves. And unfortunately a lot of people get lost in that. They become to into themselves, their personalities, and into their reputations. I'm not saying that having a passion for something is bad. What I'm saying is that we tend to forget what stimulated that passion, and if that happens, is the passion really a passion? See me?

But hey, not everything needs a reason behind it. That'd be a little boring. Besides, passions can simply be for a love of doing something, or would that be love? I'm not really sure. But I do love me some doodling and other random trinkets to life.


" The thing I hate most about advertising is that it attracts all the bright, creative, and ambitious young people, leaving us mainly with the slow, self-obsessed to become artists. Modern art is a disaster area. Never in the field of human history has so much been used by so many to say so little. " Banksy.

Chapter: Back In the Circle

This man never seizes to amaze me. Originality at its best.

Genius.

Chapter: Peep My Art

But he that dares not grasp the thorn,
Should never crave the rose.

-Anne Bronte
So yeah, I really like that quote. hence the shirt, hence me putting it on this page..
What do you think? Got other stuff, but here's a peep at some of my work.



The Great Gatsby. Really good book. The Curious Case of Benjamin Button isn't the only interesting story F. Scott Fitzgerald has written.

So, lemme know what you think. I need feedback people. Actually, I really don't, but I would like to hear what you have to say. =]

Chapter: Phil in the Circle

This guy is amazing. He is soo talented and creative. He makes these art projects out of the most random, but the most creative things and ideas. You should check him out.

Click here, and prepare to be amazed.

Yeah. I know. He's incredible. His artwork is very symbolic. Makes you think a lot. He kind of inspires me, because he completes his ideas, even though they are ridiculous and the process can get tedious. But here's a video of him making...I'm not gonna tell you. you watch and find out. =]



Wow. Right? What kind of sucks is that it all falls apart at the end. Like most of this "Good-bye Art" . But at least he records it.