Chapter: I'm Still Adam

A connection that was tested, but prevailed.

A myth reminiscent of a legend, something like a fairy tale, but true.

I think of you and joy fills my being, but tears shadow the feeling,

for the pain, the hurt that I've caused you.

How do I do this?

How do I show you what I mean, feel, see, am?

You told me "Madam I'm still Adam" and I stood there staring,

asking if it were true.

How could I let that doubt consume me and not be able to reach out to you?

And now you see me and you don't see…me.

You see everything, but the truth.

It pains because that's all I speak to you.

What do I do?

I want to travel the galaxies and swim through the Milky Way,

Discover other universes with you and..sigh.

If only you could step in my shoes and I into yours,

So then we could truly understand to the entire extent of understanding.

I don't know if it makes sense, but I'm just wondering…

What am I to you?

I love you, I hope you truly still love me too.

Chapter: Vespian Stardust

I always wondered why I would always hold on,
I always wondered why the connection was so strong,
It's a celestial creation, created from something beyond heaven.
It feels so real. (lol)
Separated from everything, we are one,
Looking down upon all that goes on,
The stresses don't amount, they don't exist,
They vanish with your presence,
With your voice all there is, is bliss.
A galactic alignment of 2 souls merged as one,
A masterpiece originated from stardust.
And we sway among the galaxies, stopping by the moon,
Sit and speak of dreams and fantasies, that we'll fulfill so soon.
Telepathic connection, the power of a glance,
The protection of your embrace, the security of holding your hands.
The depth of your eyes as you lock with mine,
Forever is an understatement to measure our time.
Vespian encounter started our vespian ways,
Vespian zest to all our vespian days.
<3

Chapter: Sigh

How can I even ask for forgiveness?
Is it deserved?
Sigh.

Chapter: Clarity

Tested times created horrible crimes,
Vulnerability and manipulative, so they entered my mind.
I only wish I could go back and rewind,
And see your genuineness, see your only supposed to be mine.
See it's only us, see it's only right.
Does it matter at all that now I see?
Now I know how it's supposed to be?
Lifelong forever, Penelope.
Vespian trials, please believe in me.

Chapter: Pray With Me

So I sit here now praying.
Praying to God to clear up the skies, to enter our minds.
I'm praying you'll see you're my only hope.
Praying you'll see my honesty.
I ask God for forgiveness, but how can I do that when I can't even forgive myself?
I know what I want, and I know what'll it'll take to get there.
I won't give up though.
I'll accept everything you say, everything you feel, it's only deserved.
A wrong can't go on without being payed for.
So I'm paying, and I'll pay for an eternity if I must.
I ask God for your trust.
I promise, I won't give up.

Chapter: Perfect

I feel like I'm supposed to be perfect. Like those are the expectations people hold of me. One mistake and I am the worst person alive. No matter the apologies, no matter what. My image is tainted along with everything about me. Therefore anything I say is irrelevant. My attempts for progression go unnoticed. What can I do?

Chapter: What Now?

What do you do when your mistakes haunt you? When the one and only thing you've done wrong traces you and follows your every step hindering your every attempt of moving forward. Trying to stay positive, but you're presented these lurking thoughts they have that prevent that. I know. I've been there. What do you say when they don't believe you? When it's clear to you and every single molecule of your being that you only want them. Sigh, I don't understand. I'm human, as are you.
The thought of you sends vibes of love and warmth throughout every crevice of my soul. Shedding light wherever there may lay a shadow. It was only natural for me to experience a numbness at that time. The collective product of all your actions. But it happened and I grew from it. There are no feelings anywhere else. What will it take for you to understand?